I'm sure this is a lesson the majority of you have all learned out there living your big boy and girl lives, but somehow I'm a little behind and though it often feels as if I'm alone in this, I am becoming more and more aware that that isn't the case. So this is for you poor hermits and homebodies, you left behind dreamers, you lazy S.O.B.s. - The difference between want and need -
Just because you need something, doesn't mean you want it. However, in order for your need to become a (successful) reality, you have to want it. You may need a job (desparately), you may be on your very last penny, eating whatever is cheapest these days (not PB that's for sure), but unless you have that burning desire you're not going to make it happen. That doesn't necessarily mean you won't find something, but unless you reach that point in your life where you want it so badly, you probably won't enjoy it and your success at it will be limited.
The same logic of need vs. want applies to everything,
relationships as well. If you're the person that NEEDS someone or NEEDS
the relationship, it's not going to be a healthy partnership. Dependency
is only heartwarming for a very short amount of time. You need to be
strong in your independence and confident in your ability to be
successful on your own in order to have a healthy relationship. If you
can achieve that, not only will you be able to contribute equally to a
healthy partnership, but I imagine it would be a pretty great one.
I know this doesn't fit everyone, you have to have more of a personality like mine probably. You have to be a naturally lazy person. There are two types of lazy people: 1) those who are content doing nothing and just don't care and 2) those who just really can't help it sometimes. I like to place myself in the second category. I can want to get off my lazy ass like crazy, but sometimes there is just something preventing me. I'm going to say it's my sister's voodoo...
For people like me, I think you have to hit a special point in your life where you just go "What the fuck? How did I end up here?" Unless you hit that point, you're not going to feel that burning desire to make things change and you need that burning desire to be successful.
While I am incredibly happy for those who have found their success into adulthood and have so many wonderful things happening for them, I have to admit that I've become very bitter. While that bitterness was beginning to eat away at me and turn me into a person I didn't quite recognize, I think I have now discovered how to harness it and turn it into that heart-bursting want that I need in order to make substantial changes in my life.
So this is me saying that I want it. I want it all. And no matter how long it takes, I AM going to get it.
